07-07-09-Weigh In

For the past two weeks, I have gained a total of 1.4 pounds. Not good. Not good at all.

The Pathetic thing is, this past week, I didn't do any snacking at all. Here I am being good in the eating department, and I gained. Gained I tell you!

I guess this week, I will have to try to do the same thing with no extra eating, but I will have to add in some exercising. I have fallen off the exercising wagon. I need to restart my exercising.

All I need is some motivation to get up off my rear end and start exercising. We are having a contest at T.O.P.S. during the next 7 weeks. The categories are:staying and weighing, not gaining, exercising, losing in the double digits, and the best loser.

It would be nice if I were to win one of the categories. No way to do that unless I buckle down and work hard.

I could use some encouragement, though. Maybe a good kick in the rear end while you are at it. Maybe that is what is needed.

Til next time,
Donna M. Clark

No Weigh In This Week-06/29/2009

So of Course, this week, when according to my scale I am finally down instead of up; there will be no weigh in for me. My mother and I are taking my Baby sister to special needs camp tomorrow, which is four hours away from here. By the time weigh in time rolls around, we will be dropping Littlebit off.

Camp Pinetree is a great escape, both for my sister, and for my mother. Special needs kids can be extremely trying at times. Now, don't get me wrong, we love her to pieces. But there are times when she is just very aggravating. So for 6 days in the summer, she gets to go to a camp with other kids just like her. She can play and swim, and all around have a good time. It is a good camp and a worthy cause.

On the weight thing, I can only hope to maintain this weight loss through this upcoming week, and maybe even add to it a little bit. That would be cool. I would appreciate if any of you that care to would leave me an encouraging message.

Til next time,
Donna M. Clark

Weigh In-06/23/09

I gained 1.4 pounds today. My total is now 306.8 pounds. I am a terrible person. I need to lose weight. Why oh Why do I keep gaining instead of losing?

Of course, it might be the eating like a pig. Actually eating a pig. No, seriously. For Father's Day, the only cake that Hannaford's had left was one in the shape of a pig. Good for us, because Mom loves Pigs. Not so good, because we ate the whole thing within two days.

I eat everything in sight. All the time. And I haven't exercised in so long it isn't even funny anymore.

I need to start being good again. Okay than, starting this very day, I am going to get back on the wagon. From now on, exercise every day, and absolutely no eating more than I should.

Next week, I am going to be a new woman. Now, if I could just find a way to make this happen. Hints and suggestions are welcome.

Til next time,
Donna M. Clark

Weigh In- May 19, 2009

I am up this week by 1.2 pounds. I kind of knew I would be up this week, but it was still a disappointment.

This week I had difficulty with ice cream. Actually, Skinny Cow French Vanilla Truffle Ice Cream Bars. Thank goodness there are only 100 calories per bar, because I totally are 2 boxes this week. Have you tried these things? MMM MMM Good! Very not good to have in the house if you can't control your eating.

I am no longer buying Skinny Cow Products. How unfair of them to make their diet products taste so good.

I also didn't do very well in keeping away from the wheat thins. Another three boxes this week. Although, I got to say, at least it wasn't seven boxes this week.

I really did try. For example, Friday night I was hungry. Sooo hungry. So I thought, well, I will go get some vegetables. I ate a whole bag of mini carrots. We're talking two pounds of carrots. When I was done I still felt HUNGRY! My stomache was full, so I really wasn't hungry, but I sure still felt hungry.

Is there anything I can do about this? I have got to start losing again.

Til next time,

Donna M Clark

Weigh In- May 12, 2009

I am down this week, only 1.6 pounds, but still. Much better being down than up, right? I did not do any exercising this week, and ate way too much. Every night, except for last night, I ate like a pig. I ate a whole box of crackers on each of three nights, One night I ate two boxes of chocolate covered coconut bars. At least I managed not to eat anything extra last night.

I gotta say, though, that I have been hungry since seven p.m. last night. And I didn't eat anything until this morning after weigh in. So I guess I should be happy about that at least.
I don't know why I can;t control my cravings. I don't need to eat all of those crackers. I shouldn't eat all of those cracker. So why am I eating all of these cracker?
Does anyone have any hints to help me out? This has got to stop!
Til next time,
Donna M. Clark

Weigh In- May 05,2009

I am up 4.4 pounds. Didn't have such a great week. I didn't do any exercise at all, and ate pretty much whatever I wanted.

And I have been so thirsty., it's not even funny. For example, even though i weighed in today, I drank 2 12 ounce cans of diet soda, and 4 16 ounce glasses of diet soda. The only reason I stopped drinking was that I was too full for anything else. But-to be perfectly honest, I was still thirsty.

Someone told me that if I drank water I wouldn't be as thirsty, but I am not sure that I believe that. Maybe I will try more water this week. See if that helps.

At least I don't have to worry about the doctor getting mad at me for drinking too much water. I don't have to see her for a while. I haven't even scheduled a new appointment with her, yet.

So this week, I need to get back on track. I need to eat healthy, and stay out of the sweet stuff. Spearmint leaves are very bad. Not so bad, I guess, if you only have one, or two. But when you have a whole bag in one sitting, not so good. Probably doesn't do much good for my sugar, either.

I could use some words of encouragement. Anyone else ever have a problem with being too thirsty? What did you do to fix it?

Til next time,
Donna M. Clark

YoYo Dieting- April 28, 2009

I am down 1.8 pounds today. To 303 pounds total. This week I am down. Last time I got weighed in I was up. I think I am starting to notice a trend here. So far it seems that I cannot find a happy medium. One week I am up, the next week I am down. Is this what they call Yo yo dieting? This seems to be happening almost every single week.

What's worse, is I find that I have a sabotager in my household. An evil person, determined to make my losing weight fail. And who is this nefarious person? Me! Just last night I went and ate a whole sleeve of Ritz Honey Butter crackers slathered in peanut butter. I don't need Ritz crackers slathered in peanut butter., and even if I did need some, I certainly didn't need a whole sleeve of them.

For the love of everything that is good and decent in this world, I WASN'T EVEN HUNGRY! I guess I just ate out of habit. Makes me wonder, though. If I hadn't screwed myself up so totally, would I have been under that magic number of 300? My gut tells me that I might just have made it.

How do you deal with a sabotager? Especially if you are that said same person? I know I want to lose weight, so why am I doing this to myself?

Til Next Time,
Donna M. Clark

Weigh In- April 14, 2009

I gained this week- 4.8 pounds. Ouch. What can I say? It was Easter this past Sunday. We had Honey Ham, potato salad, macaroni salad, and deviled eggs for dinner. And of course, we had donuts and coffee for breakfast.
Than, all day long we had candy from the Easter Bunny. That damned bunny. It knows just what are my favorite things to eat. Pink Marshmallow Peeps. Not fresh out of the package, but just a little hard. That's the best way to eat them.

I know that all peeps are supposed to taste the same-but really, come on. Those red chicks, green bunnys, and blue bunnys just don't taste as good as the Pink Bunny Peeps.

Than, of course, there are the peanut butter eggs. The Easter Bunny got those not thinking that I would become totally addicted to them. Why would he think I would, I have never had them before, and just didn't know how good they were. Sure, I have had Peanut Butter Cups before, and I like them. But Peanut Butter Eggs are totally too too much.

At least one of the treats in the baskets were really healthy; hard boiled eggs. Bambi and I colored them and made a big mess. They are adorable.

What are the treats that you can't get enough of? Your stay away from from now on treats? And how do you do that with kids in the house? Hints would be really helpful.

I have to work better at losing weight for next week. This is bad...Very bad...

I know that this post was from April 14th, but that was two weeks ago. I had it written out and just forgot to post it. As I am trying to keep track of how I am doing, I figured it would be better to post it late than never.

Til next we meet,

Donna M. Clark

Weigh In- April 07, 2009

I lost five pounds today, making me weigh 300.0 . I really wanted to get below 300 pounds his week. You should have seen me. Here it is wintertime, and I am taking off my hat, my glasses, my watch, and my shoes. I got down to my undershirt and my thinnest shorts.

Now, I know why people strip down so far. I haven't done that before, because I figure I would still weigh the same thing. It didn't make much sense to me to take it all off when I would still weigh the same thing next week.

So I guess next week I will have to work twice as hard so I don't have take off as much to weigh what I should. Maybe if I exercise a little more it will help. Or at all.

I'm not sure what to do about the doctors advice, though. I feel I will get dehydrated if I don't drink when I am thirsty, but she told me not to drink so much water. I guess I am going to have to keep on doing what I have been doing. It seems to be working so far, at least as far as I can see.

Til next time,Donna M. Clark

Drinking Too Much Water?

I had an appointment to see my doctor this morning. I'm not really sure why they even bother to make appointments. Mine was at 1100. Okay, so I get there at 1045, and sit, and sit, and sit. I was in the waiting room for 45 minutes. Than I was in the office for 60 minute. Finally, Doc C. came in and was in the room for 15 minutes. I mean, if you wanted to see me at 1230, why did we make an appointment for 1100? Anyone know the answer to that conundrum?

Anyway, so last week I had my blood test done, so Dr. C could check on my HA1B levels. (I might have that down wrong, but basically it is my 3 month blood sugar levels.) First, she tells me that my sugar is going up. Um, no it isn't. I started at 14, last November I was at 13, and this past test, my number was 11. I wasn't really great at math, but doesn't the number going down mean my sugar is going down, too?

Oh, right, she tells me. I was mistaken. But your sugar is still too high. I agree there, it is too high, but like I said, it is going down, slowly but surely. Not fast enough, in her opinion, so she wants me to start taking double the medicine. We tried this before, and double the medicine leaves me light headed and sick. Well, okay, we will give you one extra 500 mg pill of glucophage a day. That shouldn't make me feel too sick. Alright, I will try.

Than, she tells me that my sodium levels are too low. She tells me I am drinking too much water. I do not see how that is possible, because I only drink about 64 oz a day of water. She tells me I can add a package of jello mix or koolaid mix too my water, or- get this, drink more Diet Soda. Has anyone out there in computer land ever been told by their doctor to drink more soda, less water? My Mom was in there with me, cause she had an appointment, too. It's a good thing she was there, because I don't think that anyone would ever have believed me otherwise.

So I am on a new plan, one to get my sodium up, my sugar down, and my weight down. My blood pressure was fine, if a little low. Seems I can't win for losing.

By the way, I do not like her scale. My scale at home this morning said I was 300.8 lbs. Alright, I thought, almost at that magical number of less than 300. Oh, no, according to her scale, i weigh 305 lbs. I hate her scale. I truly do.

How have you been doing this week? Anyone else ever had conflicting messages from their Dr.?

Till next time,

Donna M. Clark

Weigh In-March 17, 2009

I didn't do so good this week. I still lost, but I only lost 8/10 of a pound. Not a very good job. In my defense, I did spend Friday, Saturday, and Sunday with my mother at a retreat. The food was good, there, and we ate at Olive Garden twice during our little escape. Olive Garden does not have health food. Have you tasted their Chicken and Gnocchi soup? It is to die for. And I don't even like soup. Or at least, I didn't used to like soup. This stuff, I like.
So, back on the wagon I go. I guess I am lucky to live so far away from civilization as we know it. No more Olive Garden for me for quite a while. Back to eating healthy and exercising daily. But aah, it sure was fun while it lasted. What new food have you tried out lately? Was it healthy? Or was it something that was so good, you didn't care whether or not it was healthy? Let me know, and til next time,
Donna M. Clark

Biggest Loser?

Am I the only one who feels betrayed by Biggest Loser this week? I mean, it just doesn't seem fair that they would have such a huge buildup on offering immunity for every one, and than when the Mother only lost 3 pounds, saying that if Mike didn't lose more than ten, it would be his fault that 2 people had to go home. Where is the fairness in that?
And than to make us wait until next week to find out whether or not Mike was able to do it. Totally unfair. I was not pleased in the least bit. I look forward to seeing what will happen on this show each week, but lately I think I am becoming disillusioned. What do you think about it? Are you mad at the show? Do you even watch the show? See you next time
Donna M. Clark

Biggest Loser For The Week! March 3, 2009

After last weeks 5.2 pound gain, I was not feeling too good about myself. But I persevered. I started eating more healthy again, and made an attempt at exercising more often. I only got in two days, but that was better than the no days from the previous week.

I guess it worked! When I went to weigh in this Tuesday at T.O.P.S., I lost 6.6 pounds for the week. Right here, picture me doing the Snoopy Happy Dance.

So I guess that goes to show that exercising and eating right does work.

It blew my mind that I lost so much weight. This week I am literally the biggest loser at our local T.O.P.S. I was the "greatest achiever for the week", so I got to take home the pendant saying I was the biggest loser. This is the first time I have received this honor. I must say that I am a little bit proud of myself.

I get to keep the pendant until next Tuesday, when we get weighed in again. I can only hope that maybe I will be able to keep it for longer. It will all depend on how hard I work at losing weight.

I also received a ribbon for having been to the meetings for 4 weeks in a row. I like getting ribbons and pins. It makes me think I am really earning something.

So, I will let you go for now, give a shout out to let me know you are listening. Questions or comments are always welcome. See you next time.

Donna M. Clark

Not The Biggest Loser

I didn't chicken out like I thought I was going to. I went in to my T.O.P.S. meeting this past Tuesday to get weighed in. Not The Biggest Loser doesn't even begin to describe it. I gained-GAINED! Not just 1/10 of a pound, or even a pound or two, which I could have understood. I gained 5.2 pounds. Yes, you heard me right.I gained 5.2 pounds. That is totally not acceptable.
This puts me back up to 313.2 pounds. Arrgh! I am not a happy camper. I have to get off my rear end and back to work. I need to start exercising every day again, and staying away from the night time eating.
I started out so good. I was exercising for an hour a day, every day, and I was eating totally healthy. But than I thought, oh, it won't hurt to have one of those. The next time it was, ah, what's one day not exercising. Than Valentine's Day came and I ate the whole box of chocolates. It's been all down hill from there. But starting right here, right now, I am going to start being good again.
I need to lose this weight. My Doctor keeps threatening to start me on insulin if I don't get my sugar to a more manageable level. Can't have that, now can I?
Words of encouragement are more than welcome here. I know, I know- as the T.O.P.S. saying goes- "Today begins a new week." But still, I need help with my motivation. See you next time.

Troubles With Temptation

I am having problems with temptation. I've been doing so good- exercising regularly, and eating healthy. But than, from out of nowhere- cravings have hit me. In the past 24 hours I have had three peanut butter cookies, and I am not talking about those little ones that the Keebler Elves sell. I'm talking about the ginormous ones that a local restaurant in town, the Blue Bird Restaurant, makes and sells. These things are about the size of my hand spread out. And are they ever good. But I digress. I know, I know. The best way to keep away from them is to stop buying them. My won't power, though, is having a hard time with that.
I am afraid I am going to gain weight his week when I jump on the scale at my T.O.P.S. meeting, instead of losing it. Well, maybe that would be motivation for me to stay away from those cookies.
Maybe I just need to be told, 'NO! You can't have those.'
How do you deal with temptation? What makes you push the plate away before you are really full?
See you next time on this strange journey of trying to be worthy of the title of "Biggest Loser" .

Valentine's Day- 2009

Ouch! I just saw this picture from Valentine's Day, and

it has scared me right to pieces.

I figure if I have this blog out here for everyone to see, it might help to keep me on the straight and narrow just a little bit.

So here I am, trying to lose almost a full person. My goal is to get down to a weight of 150#s. I know that will be difficult, but I have to do it.

On this blog, I am going to journal about the ups and downs of my weight loss. I will say what works for me, and what doesn't.

Feel free to come in and look around, and leave me a comment to let me know what works for you.

Hope to see you again real soon,

Donna M. Clark